bottle that feeling

I have been sitting here watching So You Think You Can Dance and I have to admit, I just have tears that creep out and roll down my face.  Now, before you think I am some kind of crazy, I can pull back and logically tell myself this is strange behavior.  But before I pull to far back I have to unpack what happens inside of me when I watch something like this.  I remember the first time I had this reaction, it was the LA Olympics, Mary Lou Retton was on the floor routine and she NAILED it!  I sat in our house as a young girl and cried, I couldn't stop.  And here's why.
When I watch someone who has worked their whole life, be it twelve years, twenty or eighty and they have the moment of a lifetime, it stirs my soul to overwhelming excitement.  I get this same feeling when Blair and I have our life goals conversation and pray to be humbled and courageous to reach all of them.  I get this same feeling when Kenton uses his gift of sermon delivery and Christ followership.  I get this same feeling when graduates cross over the stage of their ceremony. 
I love excellence and I know in our humanity that true excellence is hard to accomplish.  The roads can seem long and the endurance required can make you question everything.  When the excellence God has given all of us fights its way to debut on the surface instead of crouching behind insecurity and fear, when one has looked them self in the mirror night after night after night knowing they have given it all they had; this is where I find a soul moving connection and for me it comes out in a kind of slow motion set of tears that well up and spill over ,running hot down my cheeks.  The physiologist would say it's adrenaline but I say that it is my spirit so full of joy my physical body cannot contain it and I spring a leak.  I wish I could bottle this feeling to share with you.  However, the truth is, the chemistry is different for everyone.  Take some time to be humbled tonight, lean in and connect with God in a way that allows Him to let your cup runneth over. 

Comments

[Sharon]

Those tears are another reason you fit so nicely into my family. Your understanding of tears brings us closer. Sometimes I just cannot help myself amd tears of JOY overflow...

[Dojinshi Yuri Hentai]

mm.. really like it :)